Of course I say that and it makes it all sound very glowy and happy-there were many classes I dragged myself too and spent the bulk of the class counting down the minutes and feeling annoyed about the sing song wood nymph like voice the instructor was using in an attempt to seem all transcendent and superior. And don't even get me going over my growing hatred of the heat and mass pile of sweat soaked towels taking over my laundry area.
One day though I was in a class with a teacher I love/hate. I love her energy and how she'll segway while forcing us to hold a pose for what feels like an excruciating amount of time on some tidbit of yoga philosophy. She went into a rather long explanation about chakras while I was holding Warrior 2, describing how the ego (green) is located around our mid back and its where we store things like jealousy/expectations, etc-and if thats something you struggle with you'll have fears and difficulties with backbends. As she went through the chakras and the poses meant to challenge them or release the negativity I was floored by how issues I didn't have (like supporting myself) and the relationship with the ease I could move into those poses versus my obvious struggles and how they correlated to poses I loathed.
I approached the instructor after class to tell her enthusiastically how much the dialogue had been in my wheelhouse. After discussing mind body connection for awhile she suggested I go to teacher training. I scoffed it off stating I was too new, and she scoffed right back saying my energy and heart were in the right place and that she would be teaching the next round.
I considered it, and thought, "No, too busy with Corporate America."
Then I was lying by the pool and I looked over to see an abandoned book lying next to me-all about chakras. I glared up at the universe, then spent about 3 hours reading the book cover to cover because I was fascinated.
I thought a bit more about it wondering if the high cost was a money grubbing scam.
While I was doing that internet search I flipped on the television to see an interview with a yoga master on how yoga helped him in his search for spirituality.
I caught myself complaining about how bored I was and how much I wanted to learn something new that could actually impact other people.
And then I thought, whats the harm? Worst case is I spend a lot of money to take a 200 hour course and am bored but learn a lot. Best case is I become a teaching guru-even if I wind up somewhere in the middle I'm ahead.
I signed up.